I’ve been working on a new story, currently titled “Silver Night,” the past few weeks. Yes, I’ve been slacking on Dreamscape while writing this, but it’s just fit my mood more, recently. The thing is, it’s probably fit my mood TOO well: “Silver Night” is the most personal and, well, emotional (damn, but I hate using that as a descriptor concerning my own work) I’ve written. I’m not even sure I want the story to see the light of day (i.e. be shown to public audiences). In some ways, I really like it and I’m proud to have written it; in others, I’m not so sure. This being the case, I’ve decided to leave it up to whatever audience I actually have on this website. If you read my stuff, let me know if I should post “Silver Night” sometime in the near future. This one is entirely up to my readers. Comment away!
Cerulean Sundown – Revised
StandardAnd finally, after almost two months, I’m posting the revised version of Cerulean Sundown. I’ve had it written for quite some time (since the end of April, actually), but due to some issues with wordpress and my own obnoxiously busy life, I’ve slacked and delayed posting it—and yes, it is, like Folds of Ruby, vastly different from the original. Now, after far too long, it is up for your enjoyment. I sincerely hope it was worth the delay…
The mood at the reception was as expected: subdued, with hints of normality hidden just below the surface. Most of the people were just glad to be done with the funeral, but couldn’t quite work up the nerve to be openly relieved. In a way, Mat appreciated that; mostly, though, he found it beyond irritating.
He wandered among the tables, hardly registering the half-hearted sympathies that the guests sent his way. His glass of dark red merlot rested, forgotten, in his right hand. His left was clenched around Jordan’s hand while she walked next to him, tears falling silently from her eyes. He knew that those tears weren’t totally for Andy, but he had no desire to confront that yet. Continue reading
Upcoming Posts
StandardI very recently (as in within the last hour) posted the rewritten version of Clouds of Ruby, now titled Folds of Ruby. In the coming days/weeks, I’m also going to be posting the new version of Cerulean Sundown, as it pertains to the events that happened in Folds instead of Clouds. Beyond that, I’m going to be diving right back into Dreamscape when the semester is over—finally. So, there will be another new short story up very soon and teasers from Dreamscape should be appearing as well. Keep checking in, and as always, let me know what you think!
Folds of Ruby (i.e. Clouds of Ruby, revamped)
StandardAfter realizing that Clouds of Ruby needed some significant work in order to hold its own as a short story and not just a scene in a bigger narrative, I decided to rewrite it. Completely. And rename it…so, the following is the new, polished and finished product: Folds of Ruby.
Mat had a hard time getting his head around the upcoming weekend. It didn’t feel right, for two reasons: one, he wasn’t in college anymore; and two, he knew that Andy would try to set him up with someone. It had been two years, after all, since Nicole’s treachery had reared its head and sent their relationship straight to hell.
So Mat sat on his back porch and fretted, trying to calm himself with a beer and a Sudoku puzzle. He tried to lose himself in the descending weather, a phenomenon that was part of why he loved Haven Falls so much. The heavy humidity of the evening summer air condensed into fog as the temperature dropped, leaving the neighborhood blanketed in a myriad of colored blurs. While the dark brew traced its way down his throat after each sip, Mat watched while his small yard became faded in slow increments. He compared it to his past relationships; even those that didn’t go anywhere always started out seemingly clear, but ended shrouded in ambiguities and confusion.
His tension reached a peak when he felt his phone buzz, and he withdrew it from the pocket of his jeans to read a text from Andy, proclaiming “ETA 30 secs.”
Mat took a couple deep breaths and attempted to ignore his suddenly pounding heart. Whether he wanted it or not, he knew, the weekend at Andy’s cabin was upon him. He couldn’t simply ignore the myriad female opportunities that were sure to present themselves this time.
He finally stood up and smoothed down the red button-up shirt he had on. Some small part of his mind seemed to whisper, if you’re so against girls and relationships right now, why did you dress up?
It took him only about twenty steps to reach the front door, just a few seconds after he heard Andy’s knock. The familiar one-one-three rhythm announced that it was definitely his best and oldest friend standing outside.
Mat managed a smile when he opened the door, fully expecting to go through their normal fist-bump greeting.
He halted, hand half raised and fist unclenched, when he saw that Andy was not alone in front of the open door.
“Jordan?” Mat blurted out.
She was standing right next to Andy. It was her, no doubt about it. Jordan Brewer, one of his best friends in college and the girl he’d always had a crush on. The girl who he was always too afraid to pursue, lest he somehow irretrievably ruin their friendship.
The girl who was still stunningly gorgeous.
She was wearing a dark red sundress, her dark brown hair hanging loose to her shoulders. She wasn’t wearing her glasses—she usually only did when she had her hair in a ponytail—and her light blue eyes shone out at him. She looked every bit as good as she did in his memories of her.
A smile bloomed on her face, and he noticed that she was wearing a dark red lipstick. “Hey, Mat. It’s—well, it’s been a while.”
Mat nodded, a little overwhelmed by her sudden appearance on his doorstep. He wanted to shoot an accusing glare at Andy, but knew that she would see it and wonder. Meanwhile, the small voice in the back of his mind spoke up again, teasing him: Aren’t you glad you dressed up, now?
“Yeah. Yeah, it has,” Mat said, a little hoarse. “Uh, come in.”
When they kicked their shoes off, Mat realized that he’d completely ignored Andy so far. He turned to say something, but found his best friend grinning in a bemused sort of way. “Ha, ha,” Mat said instead.
Andy’s grin widened. “What?” There wasn’t even an attempt at innocence in his voice, and Mat scowled.
Jordan raised an eyebrow at their little byplay. It reminded him of how he’d always loved her dry and witty sense of humor.
He ground his teeth, frustrated and amused that Andy’s little ploy seemed to be working perfectly.
“Can I get you anything to drink? Jordan?” he asked, feeling compelled to say her name out loud again. A slightly warm sensation spread through his stomach when he did. Dammit, he thought. I’m falling for her, and it’s been thirty seconds since she stepped into my house.
She nodded and brushed her hair back behind her ear. He saw that she’d gotten another piercing since college, and now had a pair of studs in her earlobe. “Water’s fine for me.”
“I’ll check out your beer,” Andy said, his deep voice contrasting with Jordan’s mellow tone. He followed Mat into the kitchen and began digging through his refrigerator.
Mat punched him on the shoulder.
Andy turned around, already clutching a frosty Guinness in his left hand. “Huh?”
“Come on, you’re killing me!” Mat whispered fiercely.
Andy’s smile returned as he rubbed his shoulder. He popped the cap off of the Guinness on the edge of the counter and said, “Hey man, you needed it.” He lowered hisvoice. “You needed her.”
Mat grimaced and turned away to fill up a glass with water for Jordan. He wanted to protest, to say that he was fine—but that nagging conscience wouldn’t let him. He knew Andy was right.
After dropping two ice cubes into the glass of water, he grabbed Andy by the arm and said, “You’re a good friend, you know that?”
They went back into the living room by the door and found Jordan standing in front of the couch, looking at Mat’s pictures hanging on the wall.
“Here’s your water.”
She spun around, little spots of embarrassment on her cheeks at being caught looking. She took the cup and said thanks while her fingers momentarily intertwined with Mat’s against the condensation and glass.
Mat failed to mask his sudden intake of breath. He stared down at his hand, at the spot where her fingers touched his. Now is your chance to finally make that move, he told himself, the move that you never made in college.
He opened his mouth and prepared to speak as she reached down and smoothed out the folds of her ruby dress.
Shorty: Cerulean Sundown
StandardAnd here it is: the conclusion to the three-part cycle of short shorts concerning Mat. Please comment and let me know what you think/if any changes should be made! Thanks, and enjoy!
It was six o’clock again. This early in the fall, the sun was only beginning to set. Faint traces of pink tinged the western horizon, but Mat knew the sun would not be completely down for at least another half hour.
He knew this because he’d seen it act the same way each day for the past month as he went through his schedule in a dazed manner. He knew it wasn’t healthy, but he didn’t care. How could he? Andy was dead.
Mat already had his car filled with gas after making his weekly stop at the nearby Shell. He already had his weekly groceries purchased and safely bagged in the trunk. All that was left of his public routine was to eat in his—their—booth at Juanita’s. He wouldn’t let himself think of The Booth as his alone. It was, and always would be, The Booth that he and Andy loved.
He pulled into a spot a few rows away from the front doors. These days, he liked a little distance from everything and everyone. This weekly habit of eating out was his one concession to the community, though he saw it more as a memorial to Andy.
While he walked, head down and shoulders slouched, he heard a female voice call his name. He thought he recognized it, and he lifted his head in a brief moment of uncharacteristic strength. The voice called again, and he looked to his right and over his shoulder.
There she was. He knew he recognized her voice. She looked similar, after the eight years since college: still slim and ridiculously pretty, still with shoulder-length brown hair and pale blue eyes. She was wearing her glasses. He’d always loved when she wore them.
“Jordan!” he said, surprised by the emotion in his voice. “It’s been, well, too long.”
She smiled as she approached him, and he thought her smile had only gotten better in the intervening years. “It has.” She paused, her smile fading, and seemed as if unsure whether to go on or not. When she did, her voice held little of its original warmth and exuberance. “I saw you at the funeral.”
Mat stared at her for a second, unable to speak. He found his tongue and said, “You’ve kept in touch with—with him?” He was unable to speak Andy’s name out loud.
Jordan shrugged. “We spoke every so often.”
At those words, Mat felt the familiar emptiness return full force. His stomach clenched, and a bright memory of Andy playing cards with the two of them their sophomore year surfaced. He struggled to find words, to tell her that he was sorry he didn’t maintain their friendship after college, that he never asked her out in college because he was afraid to ruin that very friendship…that right then, he needed to flee from her to contain his grief.
Before he could articulate any of that, she stepped forward with startling speed and wrapped her arms around him, hugging him with a tight grip and weeping into his shoulder.
Mat’s conscious self had no idea what to do. He was the one deep in the throes of depression. He was used to having other people pour their sympathies out to him. To be placed in opposition to that baffled him.
At least, it baffled his thoughts. His instincts kicked in, and he hugged her back. The feeling of her warmth in his arms brought up a wave of memories from college, overpowering the grief-stricken thoughts of Andy. He brought one hand up and stroked her hair, moving it back from one ear and tracing an arc behind it. He murmured soothing words into that exposed ear.
Her tears subsided after a few minutes, and by the time she finally released her hold on him and wiped the last vestiges of moisture from her cheeks he already knew that he loved her. Every yearning he felt in college returned to him, and he felt nothing holding him back this time.
“Would you like to have dinner with me tonight?” he asked, gesturing to the restaurant behind him. “I have The Booth reserved.”
A fresh wave of tears cascaded down her face as she answered, “Nothing would be better, Mat.”
He averted his eyes, letting her cry free of embarrassment. He looked straight up at the sky, slowly darkening to the deepest blue he ever saw while the sun set behind them.